Half What?

It's been quite a while since my last post and quite a bit has happened in the meantime; I have lost a dear friend, the government has shut down, and I've recently caught one hell of a cold. I have also recently passed my real estate exams, treated myself to a new macbook, welcomed two dear friends to Nashville, and have been pampered and babied by my husband and my friends while feeling under-the-weather. Doesn't the saying go, "It's all about perception?"I think about this subject probably too much and I will most likely write of perception again in the future so I apologize in advance for the redundancy. 

As any Southern female would have you believe, well I always head towards the light given any situation...but let's be real here, I don't. I've been isolating myself from things that make me happy, consoling my own inner negative feelings as if they were my beloved dog, Amicus. Hey, folks, wanna hear another flaw of mine? I can be very self destructive and from now on I will work on this. I will limit my number of bath-times to listen to Cat Power and Fiona Apple while weeping in the candlelight to one night only, though there must be a release of all the sadness so a little leak in the sunshine exterior must be allowed, one night is acceptable. Baby steps, people. 

Though there can only be one night to snail up in my shell and be silent and pity my situation because of what? Perception. A greater person for this world to have dangling around it would try to perceive the good that they have surrounding them, not the bad. Those Cat and Fiona baths could last as long as I could stand the chill of the water, but that chill could be all that I'm contributing to that moment I have to dangle upon this world, and who wants to soak in a bathtub full of chilly tears and listen to heartbroken altos moan against your crying when you could hold up a shield of sunshine? Yes, it sounds cheesy and corny, but I do not apologize for being me, the open heart wrapped up in a human. 

So today, as I cough upon my shiny new laptop, I think of the fun times I had with my buddy, Joe, and how he always seemed to have a shield of sunshine around him, and I think of my husband's smile when I compliment the incredible braised chicken and kale he made me for dinner. The positive chain of thoughts begin to unfold, just as the negative thoughts. So now I'll keep on with the positive perception, try and be grateful for the numerous, spectacular, and unique blessings for which only I can enjoy. I hope we all try and enjoy dangling on this planet together and perceive ourselves holding onto our sunny shields because only then will we be prepared to shine on our own. 

As always, I appreciate you, your time, and I wish you sunny days ahead.